So, I've been gone again for a few days. I received some terrible news recently that my best friend passed away, and I needed to deal with that. I'm not sure how to deal with it, really. At first I was all over the place with my emotions, bordering on a panic attack many times, until I found out it was what she wanted, then I think I found my peace.
Susan battled with cancer for a very long time. She was a strong fighting champion, and if you just met her, you would never know what she was really going through. She always had a bright, sunny smile and nice things to say. Her death came so suddenly, I assumed the cancer had finally taken over and she had lost her battle, but in reality, she won. She decided it was time, and she didn't want to suffer anymore. She took her life into her own hands like she always had and made the decision to let nature take its course. I always admired her for her courage and willingness to do what needed to be done. I know that she just knew this was going to continue to be a very long, hard battle, and the only way she would come out a winner was to decide when and how she finally let go. That takes enormous strength, something Susan definitely possessed. I will miss her terribly, but I am so glad she has found her peace in this world and I look forward to the day when I see her again.
So now that I am able to function a bit more normally, I am back to my walking routine. I bought myself some new shoes yesterday, and today I am wearing them without my foot brace just to see how my left foot does.
I have even more reason to work even harder now. Susan always cheered me on and always believed in me, and I will never let her down. I can feel her gently coaxing me, telling me I can do it and to never give up!
Step count today: 215
Steps I'm behind: 7,745